[08 Jan 2007|01:04pm] livejournal.com/~indierawks mhm. post comment

[05 Jan 2007|12:03pm] I feel like a homemaker right now. My mom left me a note to cut up vegetables for dinner, while I was doing that I was cooking an omelet, running the dishwasher, doing laundry + folding towels all while listening to am news radio. o snap. 3 comments|post comment

[02 Jan 2007|05:19pm] things are kind of insane right now. post comment

[01 Jan 2007|11:16pm] so, peace out 2006. you treated me fairly well. ( partah ) 2 comments|post comment

[29 Dec 2006|11:25pm] I'm so extremely sick of being sick. It's boring + I want to not sit in my house over break. The only thing I've done is play around on illustrator + download music, for like the past five days. It's so pointless. post comment

[23 Dec 2006|04:24pm] It's really wonderful to be able to sit in my own comfy bed knowing that I don't have to do anything at all. [atleast not much] I like being able to take time to just think. I like being unsure yet completely certain. It's a very controlled spontaneous sorta thing. I like making designs that no one will ever see. I like how each one has it's own story behind it. I like being a dreamer. I miss taking photographs + I always miss my friends, even if I just saw them. post comment

[13 Dec 2006|08:24pm] I have a lot of issues with things in troy. I feel like I left everything unresolved or not even dealt with at all. It's so easy to forget about things when I'm here because it feels like I'm in a whole different world, because I really am. Things are different here, sometimes too different that it's hard to remember where I came from. It doesn't help that I haven't kept in contact with people as much as I should have. Everyone has gone on with their lives and I have gone on with mine, naturally. But I feel like a lot of that has happened too seperately that the only home thing about home is gone. The past four months have happened, It's hard to accept this because I have missed out on a lot + I feel as though everything home has missed out on things here. But it's hard to miss somewhere you've never experienced, so I guess only the prior is true. I guess I've gotten too used to how life is here. Maybe I just miss how things were too much that I don't want to accept that they're over. I actually hate the fact that they're over. I'm really just scared. This is why it's hard for me to go back to michigan. post comment

[10 Dec 2006|05:04pm] It's fun to watch everyone go insane. Living purely on caffiene snacks + minimal napping. We have lost our little minds. We have turned to mush, mushy mush mush. And still, barely anything gets done. I have to rework my entire paper + finish 40 pages of psych tonight. It's starting to become crunch time. [crunch, crunchy crunch crunch] post comment

[04 Dec 2006|10:23pm] I don't overreact. I overthink, am insecure, and unsure. I don't know why you can't just fix it. I wish you knew I needed it. post comment

[03 Dec 2006|02:33pm] I haven't gone to bed since 4:30/5:00 the past three nights. thursday was because of drunks friday was because of drunkness saturday was because of talking/people in my room/fire alarm at 4:15 I have gotten zero work done all weekend. I have a test + report due tomorrow, two smaller papers due tuesday + wednesday. then finals all next week + a 10 pg paper/project due. [not that you care, but I kinda had to write that out so I realized how screwed I am becoming] I wish I had more time to talk on the phone + catch up with people, I feel like a bitch. I miss everyone from home. Every single goddamn one of you. It's too easy to get caught up in things + feel like I have no time at all. I'm sorry I haven't called just to say hi or left you silly messages. It's my fault + I promise to make it up to you once I am free from my work. I will be extinct until the 16th of December at 3pm when I walk out of my last final, finish my first semester of college, + finally get to be able to feel like I am part of the wonderful state of Michigan again :] 2 comments|post comment

[01 Dec 2006|04:56am] tonight has been ungodly insane. mertz eight is so wasted + thank god they are all [as far as i know] finally passed out in their beds. it's 4:50 in the morning + i need to take a 2 hour/40 minute nap before i officially start my next day. night :] post comment

[20 Nov 2006|01:07am] chicago is love. we decorate the el for christmas-complete with santa+sleigh+elves + christmas music-> [http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J97r7VZhSKs], have christmas carolers, light up christmas trees, and have christmas parades... a week before thanksgiving. we're pretty much badass. post comment

[14 Nov 2006|12:35am] i was going to post this cute little entry about someting i found out, but then my unconfident side gave in + wasn't sure if it'd be worth it... or if the whole thing would click with you. so i didnt. [end story] [begin more psych studying] post comment

[01 Nov 2006|11:51pm] I wish I could stay here forever, not because I love it or because it's amazing. but because I am scared to go home and be lost. post comment

[30 Oct 2006|02:29am] I've run out of ways to try. I hate the idea of this being unfixable. 1 comment|post comment

[28 Oct 2006|07:19pm] I'm upset and somewhat sick of everything. I try to take a optimistic view, but it all fails. post comment

[27 Oct 2006|06:01pm] [ . ] post comment

[20 Oct 2006|01:10am] I have come to the realization that I am scared. I also feel like you don't know me anymore, and that it doesn't bother you at all. I don't want to be one of those people that you hand off to others. Today I regret coming here. I take the blame for my emotions. post comment

I'm having a bad day. [13 Oct 2006|05:32pm] I saw these friends at the mall today. They were so happy to be with each other. I miss that. I like it here, it's just not the same. This isn't Troy. They aren't my boys. There is no boca. I hate that I don't realize how important things are to me until they're gone. 3 comments|post comment

pout. [12 Oct 2006|08:44am] what the hell. it is supposed to be snowing right now. It says "flurries" are supposed to be happening right now. I HATE THE WEATHERCHANNEL.COM! It says that it is "cloudy" right now! IT'S FUCKING SUNNY AND PRETTY WARM LOOKING NOT 32 AND SNOWING! and, it's snowing at home- not here though. oooo no. Chicago is not allowed to get snow. [I kind of see some clouds coming though, hopefully they'll bring me happiness] post comment

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